CPS Records

I went through the public disclosure last night. 5 volumes of information, much around my case with CPS, but volume 4 and 5 were of the recent incidents involving Spencer. It is really hard to read that she threatened to kill Spencer previous to this and she was still allowed to have custody. It is really hard to get a hold of the idea that she had threatened suicide and murder and it was dismissed by the people closest to her to a point of actually having weapons available. WTF kind of ignorance is that? I guess it is fresh again, and it is angering. I'm just glad I never agreed to or with anyone that Spencer should go back to Taunya. And because I adamantly stated that on the phone with the CASA, Patricia Moettler, a chain of events began that ended with Spencer's murder. Moving on....at least I hope.
I was really happy to see visit notes from the visitaion supervisor. Not to many people have documented interactions of them with their kids. I actually have a record of playing and laughing with Spencer on my last visit with him in May, 2002. Thank you God that when I can't remember details you shed a light bringing them back into a beautifully painted picture. I love the fact that it's documented that Taunya and I had combined visits, that she was in control of my visitation with Spencer and she made it available. No see something happened between then and the incident. What I don't know, only God does.
I had a meeting with Senator Mike Carrell today and it produced nothing of substance. I was given direction to other possible candidates that have CPS on their agendas so I will explore that. The Senator has his hands full with Offender Reform he is trying to get passed. I believe he is still in our court yet he made it fairly clear he wasn't the goto person for this.

Now I make a plea, to the possessor of Spencer's infant handprint created by his grandparents please return it to either of Spencer's brothers or sister as you have absolutely no right to it. If an ex-husband, or widow God knows you have no right to it, so return it to the immediate family.

An update of sorts....

I received the DSHS file this week regarding the public disclosure documents. I still haven't popped the disc into the computer, but will probably attack that mountain this weekend. Everyone pray that I'm given wisdom with how to handle all the politics of something like this. Part of me wants to crawl into bed and pull the blankets over my head and wish it all was a dream. 95% of my being isn't like that however. So progress may be slow but as things happen I'll do my best to put stuff up here. For anyone who reads this let me say thank you for all the support and kindness that you've shown me throughout. Taunya's family has really shown an unbelievable amount of love and kindness to me and I must say, Thank you!!!